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Making Sense of Yester Year

I find great joy and resolve looking through my journal ramblings and visual representations of the past. Both a visual journal entry and written journal entries are included in today’s Blog Post as I gear up for another workshop on using these techniques for personal growth and spiritual awakening/development. I may not have daily entry practices, but find myself involved in a collective energy over a period of days to write down or draw my inner musings. It takes time to embody the wisdom that resides within, which is why as I’ve moved more into Reiki and the healing arts, I find myself encouraging others to practice writing or visually journaling their thoughts and experiences. I’ll be using a few snippets of a rather lengthy November 16th, 2022 entry while contemplating and constructing this Blog post. Enjoy the ramblings of a Divine Feminine Warrior and Energetic Artist!

The opening lines of the post read, “We are in a holding pattern of creation. In the past, the masculine ‘Braveheart moment’ aspects of freedom were deeply rooted in trauma based programming. We now have the opportunity to embody a NEW, feminine template of ‘Love’ created by balancing the masculine and feminine aspects of our dualistic world.” How very interesting that even after a year of recognition, collectively our world seems to still be sitting with a war template looming with fear being projected all around us. Do we sit and wait for a quintessential ‘hero’ to ‘save’ us from our inadequacies? Do we SPEAK up in love in effort to balance the energies of hate and divide? Do those of us who are mothers allow our children to be sacrificed at the musings of bloated egos, power, control, corruption, and greed? I believe humanity is swinging in this epic pendulum waiting for a collective move toward loving our neighbor as ourselves, and Christ Consciousness is supporting this awakening moment in a majority of humanity where continued suffering takes a back seat to love, healing, and compassion.

Continuing, “…the extreme lack of love for self and humanity, and tat violence, war, greed, control, and power have created the current world we reside in. The hard TRUTH is inevitable AND to choose change is the only way through it. We are so much stronger than many perceive, and the exact things that show us our strength can be what holds us back. It is the FEAR, hardships, and trauma that ARE the blessings AND the proverbial ‘curse.'” What is there to gain from letting our ego run away with our human traits without restraint from the gifts of the Spirit?? Enough of the ancestral patterns of self destruction, we desire more than that, yet we trick ourselves into thinking we are not worthy.

“Diamonds are not created in an instant, nor do they know their own beauty. They are created under extreme pressure over great periods of time. They are uncovered/discovered by those who appreciate their beauty.” A stone of great beauty and strength, it can slice through the hardest of materials. Humans can be like diamonds. Breaking the trauma cycles with courage. Finding grace, forgiveness, and compassion for one’s own self will bring about the ability to share the same sentiment with others. AHHHH, but it hurts, and its confusing, and it makes me feel completely isolated and I’d rather feel ‘safe’ and cope than face the TRUTH.” Can you see this playing out in grand form in our world as I write this? Do you see how globally placed media, along with social media platform AI algorithms are placating fear to disempower innate human ‘spiritual’ abilities? By idols creating misaligned ideologies relegating us to an ignorant physical mass of cells? Do we really believe we NEED something outside of ourselves to be safe, loved, worthy, human even? All questions to contemplate and conclude where our beliefs and truths emerge, either from within our being, or from another and their opinion?

Human emotions are necessary, yet we must not fear the feels. We can flow through them and not remain attached, as a spiritual Soul experiencing life as a human, we are NOT the emotions, they do not hold power over us unless we allow them to. Observe them, feel them, and move through them, just like the current state we find ourselves in. See the illusions for what they are, a program designed to pull us out of our Spiritual knowledge and have us merely act and react as a human separate from our Soul.

“Truly the human journey is about perception. Are you a victim of your circumstances pointing to external causation, or are you empowered by them? We are tasked with answering this question AND with finding the courage and fortitude to take each step into our own power granted by the Supreme Creator and use the Gifts of the Spirit to hone skills and create a personal tool kit, along with the armor of God to BE actively serving within humanity creating from the place of Love and compassion with our specific set of skills.”

In wrapping up today, I am encouraged by conversations I have with those individuals who see the illusory world, false safeties and narratives, and bizarre ideologies which seem to be delivered to merely ‘save the face’ of old power structures and are not necessary for the majority of humans. We must CHOOSE to move on of our own accord and pull the plug on feeding the beast seeking to feed itself. It’s not about perfection in what you journal, it’s simply about doing it, here is a follow up visual entry:

As always, BE well, and “In all you say and all you do, simply BE authentically YOU!” Much love, Tammy.

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Finding Courage to Bring Balance

In the process of reaching Self Mastery, we are continuously faced with lessons leading us back to internal critiques of self. It is wise to approach this critique with mercy, grace, compassion, and ultimately ‘love’ for ourselves. The direct action of viewing our own shortcomings and/or trauma from a place of self-love enables us to identify and transform (alchemize) before we project them unto others. There are subtleties and nuances around how we access our sub-conscious thoughts and behaviors, so it helps to have a conscious alchemy “tool kit.”

To grow, shift, and change our Being, we must dig deep and find courage to face our shortcomings/trauma, even if they are not of our own making. We task ourselves with a second step in mastery which is forgiveness, first of self (remembering mercy, grace, and compassion,) and then others in the same manner. Choosing to go this path is a brave one when so many humans merely exist without any awareness of their conscious tool kit. I refer to this as ‘autopilot’ mode, the default operating system within the body that responds to shortcomings/trauma, in all sorts of forms and can be quite dangerous. From unhealthy self talk, to coping addictions, to causing external verbal, psychological, and physical harm to others, unconscious living has risks with unknown variables and if extreme patterns continue, the individuals often a significantly more painful experience to draw them out of the pattern entirely. Those who are conscious of patterns, and the pain of shortcomings/trauma often make an effort to not consciously harm others, afflicting pain directly on themselves instead. It is the lowest of the vibrational energy forms and, if not recognized, may result in ending ones own life.

Now, I don’t wish to take people down a path of despair, I wish to inspire and empowering individuals to know they are loved by a Divine Creator, and regardless of their issues, recognition patterns and behaviors so they can heal themselves. I think it is important to know there are common misconceptions humans may have around this ‘critiquing’ of ones own shortcomings and trauma. Much ‘collective’ judgment exists around common historical terms like ‘evil’ and ‘sin’ in relation to our human faults. I will point out that although I was raised Catholic, and explored Christianity my entire life, I consider myself a child of the Divine, and will forever hold Christ’s teachings deep within my being but I believe there is more to the “truths” many of us were force fed through memorizing doctrine. It is important to note Christ lived in a time where a hierarchy of masculine entities sought to control reality out of fear and that his life and teachings were to provide Extra-Worldly Higher Guidance direct from the Divine Source, whereas priests and holy men held worldly views. Christ was against the worldly teachings and sought to unite through Love. His teachings were given in Aramaic, and in His culture and language ‘these terms ‘evil’ and ‘sin’ quite literally meant to miss the target or mark because it was in reference to archery, and in Hebrew ‘sin’ means “missing the mark.” “Missing the mark” in life’s causes a separation from the course of Love you set on with Divine, however, it is the judgment of the human precipitating the guilt and shame. Trusting the Divine Source of Love is unending and provides the courage to face all challenges which arise on our human journey and our dedication to correct the path of the ‘missed marks’ through forgiveness, mercy, grace, and compassion are all that are needed to heal anything in this lifetime and for generations to come.

A daily practice of energetically checking in with Divine Source and our human vessel will serve as part of the conscious ‘tool kit,’ and includes any or all of the following; prayer time, meditation, mantras, creative expression, nature observation, physical exercise and so much more. In particular, I will focus on a meditative practice walking through our energy centers located directly within our human body, the Chakra Channel. Becoming attuned to the vibration and frequencies in each of your body’s systems and connecting (plugging it into your emotional and spiritual bodies, as well) to Divine Source to discern where you are ‘missing the mark.’

I have attached a downloadable PDF meditation to use as a tool for checking in with yourself. I will update and add an audio file in the future. For more information on the Chakra system and how it can provide insight into your wellbeing, stay tuned to my blog posts and social media sites for posts linked to evolution and expansion of your Human, your Spirit, and your Soul!

As always, BE well and…”In all you say and all you do, simply BE authentically YOU! ~ Tammy

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2020 Vision?

Are you still searching for a purpose? Do you wonder how to navigate this incredible chaos we have been witnessing for months now? It has been chaotic for decades, we have grown accustomed to a life of fight or flight. A life of forced consent to mass influence and malicious leadership, picking the”lesser of 2 evils.” To systems that seem to be designed to divide our world by labels and judgement. To adhering to personal beliefs in spite of the nasty criticism. To questioning our own morals and values based on a scale that seems to be going backwards. You are not alone, I too, felt like this. It is time to be heard. It is a time to share. It is a time to be compassionate and careful not to judge one against the other. It is a communion of souls who are tired of working for a common goal that doesn’t align with their beliefs and truths. I can tell you this will fall by the wayside when you engage your uniqueness. That is why I have used the term Be-You-tiful for years now. It is important to love and find that beauty within. See, the thing is, you are not meant to be like the others. You have your own light to shine for humanity. You ARE called for more. I will be posting more regularly about this. This is my calling, to share what I’ve been receiving in prayer and meditation for years, and have only understood those messages for the past few months. It is time to step into your own, Be-you-tiful Ones, open your eyes and do not fear anymore!

I had a glimmer of my truth in 2017. At a time when many of my immediate family members were not with me here on Earth and I spent time wondering, what now? I had utilized my energy outwardly for so many years, since my early twenties, on everyone else that I simply lost touch with me. So many of us are on this hamster wheel of life without much regard for the “why.” Much of humanity is searching for a purpose, a love, a truth to hold on to and sustain. It is without a doubt in the teachings of Christianity that I learned to engage in a life of love and light. Systems beyond our control have been attempting, and succeeding in many cases, to hijack our ability to access our higher consciousness. Systems set in place thousands of years ago that are still rooted among us. Make no doubt that when you discover the ability exists within yourself to seek the One who designed this higher spirit within your human existence, you will experience love, be joyful and experience a peace like no other. It is within that search you will discover your calling and your truth.

To break it down simply, think about the first thing all of us on Earth experienced when we left our mother’s body for the first time. Breath. We inhale our surroundings. This very practice brings you to the only place you need to search for. That Love that created you (Whether you believe that to be your parents, specifically, or you extend it to God/Higher Source/Creator) is accessible from within. It is our responsibility to go within and discover the very person we were created to be. Not that of which our upbringing, surroundings or circumstances added to the blueprint of our life. Those are all additional traits.

To explain this in a simpler manner I will reference a game. The designer (Creator) has determined the main goal of the game. That designer may have associates whose job it is to develop certain aspects of the game (i.e. demographic, theme, character development, etc). Further the game design by the influence of the characters. What the character personality is, what their agenda/goal is, what tools or special ‘powers’ they may have, all providing influence in how a person navigates the game. Now the player has ability to choose their character which often comes with a preset program and navigate the game with those skills and level up by performing specific tasks. We can view this as our childhood, the basis of how we begin to view our surroundings and adapt within the confines of the protection or lack thereof in that current environment with parents/guardians, close family members, perhaps religious affiliations and friends of family. All a relatively small circle of influence

Now the next level in the game would represent elementary school age where we are exposed to new surroundings and new people of influence and peers. We learn to navigate a new space developing new skills along the way. Much of life programming at this time is social skills within the confines of a regimented space with still small circles of influence. Expanding our person in developing cognitive and coping skills based on personal and external judgement of that which we are engaged in. Enter standardized testing, “grading” based on peer development and averages, none of which promote personal growth from a place within, its mostly exterior by this point. (Ever wonder why children seem to fall short, perhaps we can view the system as putting them in a position with lack of understanding the actual systems that are in place.

The first few levels of the game are pretty basic, following a preset program and maybe adding a special tool or power along the way. Let’s, for example, say that you come from a home where there is ongoing responsibility and social activity. You have learned new skills to navigate the predetermined program in the game and can level up faster than your friend who may not have the same types of skills. Is this a “bad thing?” Is it fair to “judge” yourselves equally? In this circumstance, I think most people would say they would not place judgment, just understand that there is a difference between individuals upbringing and circumstances. Some may even go so far as to extend this knowledge or special skill to their friend to help them advance. Human nature is that of love, understanding and expansion of those skills.

Moving onto “level 6 or 7.” This is where most children would enter the middle school age or ‘tween’ years. More independence is sought as skills grow and change. Now, in the game you can choose to complete “special tasks” to advance your characters skills even further. In life this may be youth groups, sports, music, organizations such as “Scouts” or “4-H” (in my mid-west communities), community organizations, etc. All of these would develop specific sets of skills further ‘advancing’ ones character that will change the way you play the game and ultimately, the outcome of the game. We can start to understand the perspective that societal differences may significantly play a role in how we develop skill sets. This doesn’t make it right or wrong, we just play the game with the skills we have. We maintain the ability to share with peers how to navigate the game with our skills, it simply becomes more difficult as we age to do this as our game course is established, in a sense, and we may have to undo a task/s and reapply the new skill knowledge to promote more quickly in the game.

I’m going to interject some thoughts at this point for you to ponder till my next blog post that will continue on this subject. Can you start to see a trend in how our Creator had the best intentions for us at the very start, but how quickly entering this world puts us in a place of influence out of our control? As I continue on this topic, you may further understand the analogy of the game. It is very clear to me that I’ve been chosen/anointed/blessed with gifts of artistic spiritual expression and a voice the ability to open hearts by sharing using both of these sacred gifts from the Divine. I expect my gifts to be different from yours, as we are all unique. We all have our own truths creating millions of them worldwide. Embracing that difference and knowing we all are correct in our own truths is a result of trusting the process of listening to the Creator. Once we acknowledge our gifts from the Divine we can access how to acquire the skills necessary for carrying out our purpose in humanity.

Peace and Blessings to all you Be-You-tiful humans, I love you where you are at. ~ Tammy

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Create Change

Our current world is far more sinister than the one I grew up in, and although humanity has persevered through very dark times, none feel as dark as this.   Evil is masquerading about, disguising itself as well-intended and dare I say even “good.”  We are discerning right from wrong misguided by people who understand how to manipulate our minds and our decision making.  Think you are obsolete from this?  I encourage you to read on.

Inherently, we are composed of both good and bad.  Our conscience, that when influenced, can sway either way.   Knowledge is available in an instant and literally at our fingertips.  We are rapidly making choices and decisions without understanding who may be misguiding influence in a particular way.  It has been proven that so much of our day to day decisions are not made of our own accord, but by those influences.  Dan Ariely, a behavioral economist, offers his thoughts on this particular subject in his TED talk way back in 2008.  It is interesting to note that as we have become more engrossed in our high speed, online based lifestyle, we have also forgotten our real need for personal human interaction.  A point I will pick up on later.

Fast forward to our world today.  The Covid-19 “Pandemic”  Why do you think they chose that term?  One word, FEAR.  Charts, graphs and “strategic” projections based on too many variables making it difficult to comprehend.  Why?  Could it be to  create visual uncertainty?  Leaders offering daily repeated messages that seem far to general in offering clear solutions to problems at hand, and proliferating the agendas of those who have ability to influence.  I’m quite sure it’s to misguide our thoughts and sway our opinions.  Terms like ‘pandemic,’ social ‘distancing,’ ‘infection rates’ and ‘death tolls’ lean focus on the negative.  It’s no wonder people walk around like zombies with their heads down while doing their “essential” tasks.

I understand death is subject not talked about simply because of the real fear people have of death itself, probably why that remains the focus.  A message of hope in all the despair that is being projected is to step away from the messages of ‘gloom and doom’ regarding death.  It is the finality of LIFE, it’s not a new concept.  My experience with death is not at all despair or gloom.  In fact, what I have experienced with several loved ones dying is it may be sad but also very powerful on a personal level.  When it comes to understanding one’s own spirituality, I believe it’s almost not possible unless you’ve experience the joy of first and last breaths.  Grief, most often experienced as a negative emotion of death, is the counterpart of love and though it is painful and unpleasant, it is directly related to how much you love someone. (or something.)  We actually experience grief in all loss and it is justifiable and healthy to express.  Just as you are born, it’s certain you will die; what isn’t certain is how or when, it’s not really up to us.  What is also certain is you have a choice over what to do with that life, how you want to influence or lead others and what you want your legacy to be.

We also can choose how, with whom and where to spend our time.  There are 525,600 minutes in one day.  An hour contains only 60 of those minutes, make whatever you do worthy of that time.  It is certain you cannot get it back so use it wisely.

Getting back to the previous comment on personal human interaction, it has become clearly apparent how significantly lonely individuals are, yet we were too busy to recognize it.  Families, friends, businesses and communities have supported, without a hidden agenda, and have provided for each other in this time.  I’m overwhelmed with emotion when I see how as a human race we have bonded over this recent affair.  So many have joined together as humans and responded with hope and extended help to those in need.  Seeing beyond the power and greed showcases those that have pure hearts and wishing to lead from a place of love. 

I believe the messages presented in our world from those who are leading with impure hearts further cloud common good and common sense.   They are clever in their influencing and we may have to pick the ‘best of the evils’ in how our systems operate due to greed and power.  It takes far more courage to stand up and speak truth and lead with love than ever and it is certain we are in desperate need of those who will do so and make major change in our world.  

It all starts with us and where we choose to lead from.  I choose to believe that most people are of good intention, and may have unintentionally been misguided by influential propaganda directly out of their control.  Creating change we must remain true to our heart and lead with love.  This is an honorable propaganda that needs to be spread worldwide and for the greater good of humanity.

Definitely not my usual art related blog post, yet this was a heart led message that needed to be shared.

Please stay safe, be well and I love all you be-you-tiful peeps!  Art Hugs ~ Tammy

 

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Studio Truths

First, let me say, I’m blessed to be able to pursue what I love.  Second, know that life gets in the way of our pursuit and it’s okay to pause.  Passion will bring you back.

My studio is overflowing with pieces in various degrees of completion.  I will finish them over time (who knows exactly when, some of them I tinker with for months).  The reality of so much in progress would have caused anxiety in years past.  It could be overwhelming and daunting to think about what to do first or prioritizing tasks.  Mostly, I think, because of societal conditioning to follow through with what you start in a timely manner.  I’ve talked about perspective before, how you view your circumstances, etc.  In altering perspective I opened myself up to growth and I was amazed by the result.

Because I was a regimented, scheduled soul for so many years (like 20+) the concept of not working on an individual piece to completion was foreign.  What I have noticed in changing perspective is one project often sets forth another idea, sets forth another, etc, etc.  They commence within and without addressing that inner voice, it could be lost or forgotten.  Now, when that inner voice nags at me to explore something, I listen.  In doing so, my anxiety was reduced and I am able to literally ‘create’ stress away!  What a great concept!!  It is completely refreshing to explore, experiment and choose a piece to work on based on inner voice instead of exterior deadlines.  Profound concept, I know.

One step further; this applies to most everything we do in life.  As human beings we start out as an idea, if you will, hardwired with a basic design.  Given our individual circumstances, that design is slowly developed by family, faith, friends and community.  We have a basic understanding of what we may want our finished outcome to be and then exterior influences beyond our community make an impact on our being and we morph/change.  In my 42 years here, I’ve experienced this numerous times.  Changing and improving with each phase of our ‘life project.’

Viewing my art in this manner allowed me freedom of choice  When I step into my studio and often before I allow myself the guilty pleasure of quieting my soul to hear what is being said.  I know which pieces will need attention or detail, which ones aren’t developed enough and which ones are ready to impact somebody else on their journey.  As humans, we aren’t meant to be complete until our journey has ended and I would say the same of my work.  My art will live on in the viewer, it will change/morph and inspire someone else in a way uniquely personal to them.  For this reason, and the pure joy of creating, I choose to continue the pursuit.

Happy Art-ing all you Be-YOU-tiful peeps!